i just realised that my post counter only reached 88.
i'm feeling so sad now.
how long will it take before it reaches 100?
maybe at the end of this year.
haha. but i dont think im that slack.

sometimes i felt like an outcast. i'm not sure why.
sometimes i felt like i've done something wrong. but i dont know what is the 'something'.
sometimes i felt that maybe i should change. maybe i'm a bit too self-centred nowadays. but am i really like that?
i know, i've changed.
but everybody changes.
and i can't change the way people feel about me.
i can't make people like me.
but i know something, i can change.
and i will change.
i'm trying. and very hard.
i can't please everybody.
but i hope that at least i can please those around me. and those who still wants to be a friend of mine.

friendships change very fast. 2 years down the road you may not be friends anymore. but a lesson last year taught me this: never do anything wrong that you will regret for the rest your life. and i did, regret.

today, i took a sketch photo with meixue, chenying and kailin.
i really treasure my friendship with them. and besides, we have been doing projects together for countless times. haha. we are like 'project mates'? and we decided to take one sketch photo each special day until each of us gets one piece. this sounds really great. haha.

and, i treasure all friendships.




i do not know why we ended up like this.
not talking to each other.
maybe it's because of me.
but maybe it's because of you.
or maybe it's just that we are not fated to be... friends.