I BELIEVE THAT I CAN DO IT!

A lot of times, I wish
That I will not fall asleep so easily.
That i will complete everything on hand before I do that.
That I will not procrastinate so much.
That I will not think that I have lots of time to complete things.
That I can do them later/ in the morning/ in school.
That I can be more hardworking.
That i can have a sense of urgency.
That I will break this bad habit.

Maybe Lord Father will help me with this?
I haven't prayed to Him about it.
I haven't seek His help yet.
It suddenly occurs to me that, yes, i should depend on the Lord,
and ask for His help, to help me break this bad habit of mine.
it's getting out of hand.
And I'm starting to despise myself because of it.
I say but don't do.
I plan but don't do.
Shucks.
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