I feel scared all of the sudden.
scared about and of everything.
"what if this.... happens?"
"What if....?"
Questions start to pop up in my mind.
I don't have an answer!
Warning letters come flooding in.
WHY WHY? I felt super scared reading them.
I feel scared when things are not going according to my plan;
I feel scared when I don't know what and how to answer questions;
I feel scared when the atmosphere of my surroundings change'
I feel scared... most of the time.
My mask is breaking up soon,
i don't know how long more it will stay intact.
Just hope that i will have the courage to go on.
So many things happened in these two months.
I could barely swallow all down.
Some things shouldn't have happened,
all because of my stupid careless and playfulness.
All i can do now is to pick everything up and try to make up for all those mistakes.

All the best, Chua Yu Ru!
Good Luck.