Jesus, my Beautiful Saviour

2009-03-26T20:43:00.002+08:00

choco-cows no longer valid.
pinkiedotz has replaced it.

see yeah there!
add me to read friends only post :D

2009-03-24T23:06:00.003+08:00

I finally realised how God has transformed me.
I finally know what is it.
Finally.
Looking back at my old self and looking at myself now,
how I have transformed on the inside (maybe on the outside too!).
Thank God for answering my prayers. Praise the Lord!

My heart no longer wants to store up those sinful hatred,
all it yearns for is love- to love others and to be loved.
My heart no longer knows what is unforgiveness,
all it yearns for is forgiveness- to forgive others and to be forgiven.
My heart aims to be more Christ-like,
to love my neighbours and my enemies,
to forgive those who trespassed against us,
to show love, care and respect for people,
to not judged others,
to not gossip...
and so much more.

With God all things are possible.
I wish the whole world would agree with me.

2009-03-22T22:30:00.001+08:00

WHY MUST WE DO COMMENTARIES ON POP MUSIC?
LIKE CLASSICAL WASN'T ENOUGH.
sigh they just wanna kill all our passion for music.
can't they just leave out the pop music?
poor us. or is it poor pop?

2009-03-19T22:56:00.002+08:00

PAIN SUPER PAIN!!!
My arms, legs, stomach, ribs hurt.
The worst i have ever encountered. I had to roll off the bed.
Nevermind the pain i'm going through right now, at least I have learned something valuable from that terrifying PT. That is, endurance, focus and team spirit.
The year 5s were definitely more united than us. All of us know this, but we just didnt say out loud.
Am I ashamed of this. Yes, totally. No one is to be blamed. Somehow, we didn't have that chemistry and didnt bother bonding with each other. But we are definitely much bonded than we were last year during the March training camp. Definitely, and i'm sure everyone will agree with me.
Now whenever i feel like giving up, i will think of the people around me, and the consequences of giving up.
This PT has made me look at the bigger picture and stop being so selfish.
I won't just care about myself anymore. I must think for others, their pain and troubles.

I wanted to give up during the stomach thingy... Candice cheered me on. Jiahui, Vanessa and Jedaiah's scolding were encouraging. My body was shaking throughout. I prayed while doing it, I prayed that God will give me strength and help me stay focus. I thank God for his presence. (i definitely wasn't sleeping. i was closing my eyes while praying!) And i'm really glad i didn't give up. felt a sense of achievement. Furthermore, felt good that everybody persevered on for each other. :D

The run was good. Most of us didn;t stop at all! :D Good work guys! The beautiful sunrise was even much so wonderful during the run. God's work of art is perfect. The pink sky and white fluffy clouds-- they are all so beautiful.

All in all, camp was great! Good work planning comm! :D And i'm sure everybody is thankful to the teacher who made it hell for us. I for one appreciate that teacher's committment and effort. We definitely need that standard and branding.

2009-03-15T23:25:00.006+08:00

"Who do you think you will keep in contact with after your graduation from DHS (SH)?"
asked Geneve.
A very good question indeed.
I have the answers in my head,
and i hope that the number of people will grow, and that includes boys and girls. Right now i think there are no guys? hahaha.
This's something you guys can ponder about to.
Who are your true friends? Who are those whom you will call randomly just to check out how they are doing? Who are those whom you will go to in times of need?
More often than not, only less than one third of the friends we have are those that we will still continue to stay i contact with. Haha that's a sad truth. But looking on the bright side, isn't it better to have few but loyal friends? I will rather have that.

Today, the MEP gang went out for the Mosaic concert.
thought last year's one was sooooo much better.
Didnt really know how to appreciate this one. the music just went in one ear and out the other.
The double bassist was good... the pianist not too bad... the drummist didnt have much virtuosic parts for me to go woahhhhh. so yeah... last year was much more fun in some sense.
During the concert, my mind drifted to this question.
And i thought, yeah i think i will still hang out with the MEPers even after our graduation.
We will probably attend concerts together (our usual class outings), have a dinner and take random photos.
That is also probably the only times that i will specially go buy a concert ticket. Hope that even as i graduate from school, i will continue to attend concerts like once in awhile and not totally shutting myself off from the music scene.
Had a hilarious dinner with some of the MEPers, with the convo going into jeff's supposedly hairy chest and some blind cellist? Rather interesting topics with some awkard silences here and there. But that's usual. hehe.

GUESS WHAT THIS MEANS!!

2009-03-14T22:40:00.006+08:00

My precious collection... of the Shopaholic series.
Rachel, please take good care of my babies! hahaha.
They cost a bomb to me when I was in secondary school.
Quite an expensive hobby,
and I still do buy books nowadays, but once or twice in two years.
I love my precious books!

2009-03-11T20:03:00.002+08:00

I've wasted one whole year.
I'm regretting it.
I wonder whether i will be given another chance.
79 days to GP common test.
Will i be able to prove my cabilities and abilities?
I've never been so scared before.
But I'm glad the reality of A levels has finally hit me straight in my face.
As Gilbert Lee says, we have to step out of our comfort zones in order to achieve even higher.
I'm ready to take the first step.
And I hope that people and time will give me one more chance to do that.
I wish that I don't have to face this alone,
I wish there was this someone to face it with me.
But too bad, whether i'm alone or not, i still have to face it.

2009-03-10T23:21:00.002+08:00

I wanna watch the Disney Princess on Ice.
Who wanna come with me? hahahaha.
I LOVE THE PRINCESSES, especially Belle.

2009-03-08T19:43:00.002+08:00

:)
I look good with the clarinet!
hehe.

2009-03-08T19:11:00.002+08:00

AHHHHHHH!
HE'S THE MOST HANDSOME GUY THAT EVER EXISTED ON THIS EARTH!!

2009-03-08T18:58:00.003+08:00

6C34 '09
I'm really glad to be in this wonderful class.
I thank God for every single one of you,
without anyone of you,
this class would have never be the same.
We are a class that others wont say,

"wah 6C34 super smart one"
nor
"wah that mugger class".
We don't have to be a smart and mugger class,
what makes us unique is our 'jambalak combi'-
both in our subjects and our personalities.

We have 200+ more days to be together.
And i hope that every of the 200+ days will be a different and special one for our class.
Let's treasure the times we have together-
be it having recesses& lunches together
or just smacking & waking joel yee up -
before we say "congratulations on your graduation".

P.S we must make our Action Plan work!! :D

2009-03-05T23:10:00.002+08:00

I feel scared all of the sudden.
scared about and of everything.
"what if this.... happens?"
"What if....?"
Questions start to pop up in my mind.
I don't have an answer!
Warning letters come flooding in.
WHY WHY? I felt super scared reading them.
I feel scared when things are not going according to my plan;
I feel scared when I don't know what and how to answer questions;
I feel scared when the atmosphere of my surroundings change'
I feel scared... most of the time.
My mask is breaking up soon,
i don't know how long more it will stay intact.
Just hope that i will have the courage to go on.
So many things happened in these two months.
I could barely swallow all down.
Some things shouldn't have happened,
all because of my stupid careless and playfulness.
All i can do now is to pick everything up and try to make up for all those mistakes.

All the best, Chua Yu Ru!
Good Luck.

2009-03-01T00:58:00.003+08:00

BOYS BEFORE FLOWERS = YU RU'S LOVE!

2009-02-25T19:52:00.003+08:00

Watching Korean shows is the best thing ever.
Helps you rid yourself from the reality.
Pulls you into this fantasy world which you wish it was real.
Waiting for the next two episodes is a agonising feeling.
Now i wish next tuesday and wednesday will come even faster.
RAH.
Goo JooPyo and JiHoo = lovelove!
(i sound bimbotic)

2009-02-22T15:40:00.002+08:00

I didn't know what i was doing-
walking around aimlessly,
living my days just for the sake of living.
I didn't which direction to take-
left or right,
forward or backward.
I didn't know why i am like this-
confused and lost,
not sure of myself most of the time.
I didn't have the answers back then,
maybe now i do.
But all i know is,
I don't want to be like that anymore.
Gone are the days when my mood swings to and fro.
Gone are the days when my thought leaves my mind.
Gone are the days when 'loneliness' is the in word.
I'm back,
though i'm not sure whether i'm me.

2009-02-10T00:55:00.002+08:00

"I'M A MUGGER!"

2009-02-10T00:54:00.001+08:00

I FINALLY DID FINISH MY GP PRESENTATION BEFORE SLEEPING!
HOORAY!
:D

2009-02-08T23:07:00.002+08:00

Attended a wake today with Dinah.
Made me ponder about a lot of stuff,
made me question things.
Did it strengthen my believe what Jesus said, "Those who believe in me, even though he had died, will live forever."
Serving God in the care team/hospital visitation team is something i treasure.
Each visit has its own takeaway.
Makes me think deeper within too.

2009-02-06T23:52:00.001+08:00

I'M FINALLY DONE WITH MY H3 PROPOSAL!!
I HOPE IT WILL GET THROUGH!
:D

2009-02-06T21:38:00.002+08:00

FINALLY A GOOD DAY!
Now the phrase "THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!" has more meaning to it.

Dad bought me a pao in the morning,
took an early bus,
reach school early,
had okay lessons,
time passed quickly,
a few of my angels and mortals gave me nice presents,
had a hearty and hilarious talk with emeylne over yummy meal,
went home early....

but i still have to do my H3 Proposal.
and i just found out that my teacher hasn't sent me the edited one!
ZOMG. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO THE PROPOSAL!?!
THE DEADLINE IS 2359H!

2009-02-05T22:02:00.004+08:00

TODAY IS ANOTHER BAD DAY.
Why is everyday such a terrible day? Why can't there be a happy day? :(
As i was walking to the Arts Block,
a small black bird flew and hit onto my right leg.
GROSSSSSSSSSSSS!
I hate birds, especially the feathers!
I'm scared of birds, cause they fly, and cause they have feathers!
Now it touched me!
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!
So tramautising!
I immediately do the kicking action and let out a loud scream.
So embarrassing, cause all my juniors were looking at me.
Sighhhhhhhhhhhh.

I shall rant about this irritating thing which made me very angry for the entire day. But i've asked God to take away this anger and hatred from my heart, so that i can learn to love others like how Jesus loves us. I've forgiven what that person did, but please allow me to complain a little over here.

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THAT PERSON

1. HAS NO SENSE OF HUMOUR AT ALL.

2. ASKS HIS/HER STUDENT WHETHER SHE HAS BRAINS WHEN SHE MADE A CARELESS MISTAKE. THE MISTAKE WASN'T DONE ON PURPOSE, YET THAT PERSON TOOK IT AS IF SHE WAS PLAYING A FOOL AND NOT TAKING THE ACTIVITY SERIOUSLY. IS A TEACHER SUPPOSED TO INSULT HIS/HER STUDENT BY SAYING THAT? IF HE/SHE HAS NO PATIENCE TO TEACH, THEN DON'T EVEN ENTER THE TEACHING FORCE! UNLESS IT WAS ALL FOR THE MONEY IN THE FIRST PLACE.

3.LOOKS DOWN ON HIS/HER CLASS, DOUBTS HIS/HER STUDENTS' CAPABILITIES, MAKES JUDGEMENT UPON THEM, DEMORALISES THEM, MAKES SARCASTIC AND HURTFUL REMARKS TO THEM.

4. SAID THIS: IF YOU CAN'T EVEN DO SUCH A SIMPLE EXPERIMENT PROPERLY, DON'T EVEN THINK OF DOING CHEMISTRY OR ANY SCIENCE SUBJECT DURING UNIVERSITY! CAUSE YOU WILL BE AN EMBARRASSMENT TO YOUR PROFESSOR! OH PLEASE, YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO SAY THAT, LOOKING AT HOW YOU TEACH. IT'S DAMN BAD CAN. PLEASE DO A SELF-REFLECTION AND PONDER ABOUT WHAT YOU HAD SAID IN THE MORNING. MY CLASSMATES FELT SUPER HURT AFTER HEARING THIS. THEY FELT DEMORALISED. IS A TEACHER SUPPOSED TO BE DOING THIS!?!?! DID NIE TEACH YOU DO SAY THESE KIND OF STUFF TO YOUR STUDENTS? IS THIS EXPECTED OF A TEACHER? I WONDER WHERE HAVE THE GOOD TEACHERS OF DUNMAN HIGH SCHOOL GONE TO. THERE SEEM TO BE VERY FEW LEFT, ESPECIALLY IN CERTAIN DEPARTMENTS. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY STUDENTS HAVE TO RESPECT THEIR TEACHERS AND OBEY THEM, WHEN THE TEACHERS THEMSELVES DON'T DESERVE THAT DUE RESPECT. IF YOU WANT YOUR STUDENTS TO RESPECT YOU, PLS DO SOMETHING ABOUT YOUR ATTITUDE. WE KNOW WE ARE IN THE WRONG, BUT AREN'T YOU ACTING A LITTLE TOO PETTY?

5. DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO TEACH. HE/SHE HAS GOOD READING SKILLS THOUGH, I'M SURE HE/SHE SCORED WELL IN ORAL PRESENTATION. NICE. I THINK HE/SHE DOESN'T EVEN KNOW WHAT IS THE MEANING OF 'TEACHING'.

6. IS FORGIVEN.

Just read these rants for fun. I've let it all out. Feel so much better now.

OUR CLASS WILL DO WELL FOR ALL THE TESTS, QUIZZES, COMMON TEST, PRELIMS AND A LEVELS. BUT PLEASE TAKE NOTE THAT THE CREDIT WILL NEVER GO OUT TO YOU. PLEASE REMEMBER THAT. CAUSE YOU DIDN'T EVEN TEACH US AT ALL. IT'S SOMETHING CALLED, SELF-STUDY, THAT WILL GET US THE HIGH MARKS. ANYWAY THANKS FOR THE GOOD PRESENTATION. VERY NAGGY THOUGH. COULD HAVE SHORTEN IT BY THREE TIMES.

2009-02-04T21:51:00.002+08:00

A BAD DAY AGAIN.. but what's new.
My life sucks. I hate it.
Everyday is BAD. BAD THINGS HAPPENED, HAPPEN AND WILL HAPPEN.
One after another.
I'm so tired of facing bad stuff.
Happy things come and go, never longer than a minute or two.
Bad things come and stay, leaving a deep mark on my day.
Someone cheer me up?
Everything is my fault. Don't worry, i won't blame the bad things on others.
Cause everything is my fault.
My life sucks. I hate it. (oh, i said it just now)

2009-02-04T00:01:00.004+08:00

After this post, i will go do my MUSIC H3.
JeeHoo says, "Don't avoid." And i shall heed his advice and not advoid things.
It's a good advice, and i realised that i have been avoiding things for a large part of my life.
IT'S TIME TO PUT AN END TO THIS BAD HABIT!

Today's such a LOSER day. Can't belive what a BIG FAT LOSER i am. It's like triple 'L's on the forehead.
I could have reach school on time. I could have. But instead, i reached school two periods like aka 9.15am.
The Loser reasons are:

1. I took bus 30e. I was concentrating on tapping my ez-link card (cause if i didn't tap, i would have to pay lots of money), that i forgotten to press the bell. The back door opened for awhile, and as i was about to get down, it closed. tried to press the bell, BUT IT LAGGED ON ME! and only sound when the bus started to move off. All i could do was to stare out the window, watching the bus driving on the highway, as my left hand held my heavy laptop and my right hand gripping tightly onto the pole. In my heart i was thinking, "all these adults (for i was the only student in the bus) must be thinking what a loser i am."

2. I thought maybe the bus will drop at shenton way, then not so bad. IN THE END, TO MY HORROR, it dropped at....... VIVO CITY AKA HARBOUR FRONT!!!!! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. That is like SUPER FAR FROM MY SCHOOL! wth wth wth. i felt like a loser again. and when i alighted at the bus stop, i really felt like crying. here i am in the middle of nowhere, when i was supposed to be in school having flag raising with the rest of the school. WHY AM I THERE!?!?!?!

3. So i tried to find my way to the mrt. i've never been to that bus stop before, so i didnt know how to get to the mrt station. i walked a one whole big round, and i felt people staring at me wondering why i'm walking there. i continued walking, calling my mum and dad (who didnt pick up their phone when i desperately needed to talk to them), so i called my bro. he picked up. and i started crying and being a crybaby. he wasn't really helpful in helping find the way to the mrt. but at least he talked to me nicely. so wasn't that bad. I went into vivo city. i've been there less than 5 times only! i didnt know how to get to the mrt station! i felt like a loser again.

4. decided to go to the toilet and cry. so locked myself in one cubicle, and did my business at the same time. smsed my classmates. called my njh. tried to console myself. felt better. decided to stay strong. so up i went from the toilet bowl seat and walked out of the toilet (that is after i wash my hands lahh).

5. found the mrt station. in the end, found out that there was a shorter path and i took the longer one instead. no wonder i felt that people were staring at me as if im a gundoo. sighhhh. another loser thing i did. zzzzzzzzz.

6. went into class and it was GP essay writing. told the entire loser story to Mr Tan CB, he sympathised with me and gave me an extra piece of paper. felt like a loser while writing. cause i didnt know what to write.

So... this is a BI FAT LOSER STORY. don't learn from me.

2009-01-31T19:08:00.005+08:00

Steamboats...
Had two of them and felt that the simpler it is, the better it will be.
tamtams had our second steamboat at the church's breakfast area yesterday night. though not as elaborated as my family's, but i was very sure i felt a million times happier and i had a million times more fun with my lgee mates. lots of thanks to ralph and ryan (and eugene), for cutting the vegetables, buying the food, bringing the pots and warmers. we really appreciate it! They thought of everything- from meat to vegetables to fishy food to dessert to dinah&fel's cake! :D laying out the food stuff with the early birds was super funny, cooking the food was heartwarming, getting high was crazy as usual, laughing out loud with the girls was happening... i enjoyed every second of yesterday's steamboat! :D Had this family-heartwarming-lovey feeling.

I AM HAPPY! ARE YOU HAPPY? WE ARE ALL HAPPY!
2008 steamboat highlight was Alcia's drugged pepsi.
2009 steamboat highlight is...... the amazing tanghoon!! (Ralph's favourite steamboat food)
TAMTAMS- I LOVE Y'ALL!!!

2009-01-29T19:56:00.002+08:00

FAINTED...
I don't want to experience this kind of thing again. Never.
I seriously thought i was not going to make it.. (haha i have a low threshold for pain) everything was just white and pixelised. I couldnt make out what was in front of me. Walking was such a pain and killer!
Thank God for answering my prayers......
I'm so glad that I have good friends and classmates who were so concerned about me. Mr Yap was very nice and caring, he waited for me until i was better then he went to catch up with the rest of the class.
Thank you all! I really feel very xin fu! :D
The slow walk back was really interesting! We met a lot of dogs, all of which of different breed, have big and small. Huiwen and Qingyi were so scared of them! hahahaha. Yunjing was sooooo amazed by the hopping crow. Then there was this small little puppy, the size of my sushi bunny, almost falling into the kallang river! We got a shocked. Zomg.
Today was really a good and bad day. Somehow time manage to pass at a moderate speed. Had a great time while waiting for Jazreen. :P

2009-01-27T18:32:00.003+08:00

My lovely-dovey cousins-
(whom are all christians!)
I'm super happy to see everyone again (yes, everyone).
Hope we will have more of such gatherings other than the usual CNY and Xmas.
Though we were in our cliques, just the idea of seeing each other and hearing each other's laughter was ever so heartwarming and nice.
Love you guys, as i have always had.
And we must take photos every time we meet, so that we can see how each of us have grown.
WE MUST DEFINITELY HAVE A COUSIN-TRIP!
(after bohan's and my A levels)
:D :D
May God shower his love and care upon every single one of you,
And by His grace, may your days be filled with happiness and joy.
:D

2009-01-26T17:39:00.003+08:00

ESFP - The Joker
Profile by Sandra Krebs Hirsch and Jean Kummerow

ESFPs are friendly, outgoing, fun loving and naturally drawn to people. They are quite enthusiastic and exuberant, and are usually well liked by others. They are good at meeting people and helping them enjoy themselves. They are sympathetic toward people and generous with their time and money. At their best, they are able to realistically meet human and situational needs in a fun and lively way.

Living:
ESFP children are friendly, warm, active, and enthusiastic. They are very giving and concerned about others. They like to make others happy, believing that "it is better to give than to receive." Being on the receiving end may make them feel self-conscious. They tend to be good at comforting others, regardless of whether others are in need. ESFPs are aware of what is happening around them and notice much that escapes the eyes of others. They are tied into the present, particularly with people, they may sense what is happening with others before others know it. They may also notice what is going on in their environment and take delight in a spring flower, a bird's song, or a bright fabric, pointing these out in their enthusiastic way for others to enjoy. They are popular and gregarious, and are often busy in social activities with others. As teenagers, they are likely to be instigators of activities with their friends. It is difficult to catch them sitting still. They tend to be bright and sunny in disposition and enjoy laughing at themselves and others. It is hard for them to be "down," mainly because of the excitement of each upcoming event.
As adults, ESFPs lead what might look like "a charmed existence,' even when things are not going well for them. They live with the idea that "the glass is half full" and seem to land on their feet, even when they are not sure how. They usually find a niche for themselves in any situation because of their spontaneity and flexibility. Their social skills may attract the eye of a boss. For ESFPs bring a liveliness to a groups to which they belong. Life is meant to be enjoyed and is not taken too seriously.

ESFPs often are able to interact with all ages, backgrounds, and types of people. Most individuals who connect with ESFPs feel that they are treated as equals by them, regardless of age or convention. They enjoy sharing their love of life with others, not just their mates and children. People around them benefit from this.
In retirement, ESFPs continue their fun-filled, people-focused, actively-oriented life. They keep close friendships and continue to provide amusement to those who have been important to them in the past.

Learning: ESFPs prefer learning through participating in groups where they can interact with others and do things, not just observe or listen about things. They want to get to know their teachers well. It is not that the teachers have to be nice, but they do need to care. ESFPs dislike and are upset by intellectual arguments and conflict. They need to experience the concept first before discussing it or receiving a didactically presented theory. Directions must be very concrete, simple and accurate. They are also plugged into the environment. Atmosphere, attitudes, physical setting --- all make a difference. If the encouragement they receive for their social life is more than the encouragement they receive for their academic life, they may err on the side of being too social. Most ESFPs learn actively and do not function as well when they must read quietly by themselves about matters that are theoretical. They find themselves easily drifting off while studying, and they are ultimately diverted by things more real to them.

Working:
ESFP like action and excitement, and are able to link together people and resources. Because they accept and deal with people as they are, they are able to understand what is necessary in order to motivate them to get jobs done. They prefer a work setting that is lively, action oriented, and harmonious. The atmosphere and overall attitude of the work setting means a great deal to them. They like adaptable people who are energetic, easygoing, and focused on the present realities. If something is not immediately useful or of intrinsic value, it may be quickly reflected by ESFPs. They notice what is going on with people and focus on these happenings intently. ESFPs are likely to adapt as the situation requires. ESFPs like occupations that allow them to be with people. They want to be direct and practical service to others and seek work that is self-fulfilling and rewarding. Being a resource to others is an important part of their work. Some occupations seem to be more attractive to ESFPs: childcare worker, clerical supervisor, coach, designer, factory supervisor, food service worker, receptionist, recreation worker, religious educator, respiratory therapist, and other occupations that allow them to be responsive to others.

Leading:
The ESFP leadership style is one that promotes good will and team work. ESFPs are quickly adaptable and thus able to guide others in crisis situations, unless that crisis is one of disharmony among people. They are able to focus on immediate problems and using their ability to work with people. They are more relationship oriented but will work hard on the task part when the people part is going well.

Leisure:
ESFPs are quick to take leisure, give it a new twist, and create new enjoyment. They love being active, whether in craft projects, exercise classes, sporting events, or going out to dinners, parties, or movies with friends. ESFP reading tastes run toward what is useful or historical accounts about what happened, which they can use to make predictions for the future. They are more likely to read short things, such as newspaper and magazine articles, than long books. Whatever the case, they like to discuss their readings with others. ESFPs are fun to be with; they find enjoyment in most situations. Being out and about is more comfortable to them than sitting still with long periods of quiet. Their friends are very important to them, and they are likely to let them know how much they care through small mementos, special poems, or cards. They regularly reach out and touch someone.

Loving:
Love means enjoyment of one another. ESFPs want to share values with the loved one. They way people are treated is usually one value they care about. They may move in and out of relationships quickly when the situation feels uncomfortable. They are not likely to take man interpersonal risks since they fear rejection themselves. They are warm and become more generous and outgoing in the face of approval. They can become quite hampered by disapproval. Even when a relationship ends, ESFPs tend to be very respectful of the former partner. They do not want to call undue attention to the breakup and thus move on rather quickly, surrounding themselves with their valued friends.

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Profile by David Keirsey

ESFPs radiate attractive warmth and optimism. Smooth, witty, charming, clever, voluble, and open to the environment-this describes ESFPs who, like ESTPs, represent about 13 percent of the population. They are great fun to be with and are the most generous of all the types. Performer would be the word which best describes an ESFP.

ESFPs will avoid being alone (not very true) and seek the company of others whenever possible. ESFPs easily find company, for others are usually highly entertained by the presence of an ESFP. ESFPs love excitement and create it wherever they are. Their joy of living is contagious and generally they wear happy faces. Often outstanding conversationalists, their flowing banter is amusing in its wit. ESFPs have an air of sophistication and are likely to be dressed in the latest fashion, displaying an enjoyment of all good things of life: dress, food, physical comfort, and happy times. ESFPs create a mood of "eat, drink, and be marry" wherever they go, and around them life can have a continual party-like atmosphere of gaiety.

Mates:
There is an affinity of the INTJ "scientist" for the ESFP exciting entertainer. This type of mating, however, is so infrequent as to be a mere academic interest (the INTJ is a mere 1 percent of the population and, furthermore, rarely comes in contact with ESFP). More frequently the ESFP is drawn to the ISTJ "trustor." Here is the entertaining ESFP, bursting with energy and hankering to put on a show of some kind. More than others the ESFP yearns for the bright lights, the party, the excitement of gatherings. In a sense, the ESFP is the life of the party. How many times have novelist and screenwriter told the story of "the showgirl and the banker" or "the playboy and the owner"? The ESFP wants to liven up this Rock of Gibraltar at the same time he or she wants to be settled down by this very stable and responsible person.

2009-01-26T17:07:00.002+08:00

Here I am again! :)
Just ate ahma's yummy duck and mum's specialty bee hoon!
Feel very blessed right now, that i am able to enjoy both my grandma's and mum's good food. Yet it makes me think of sad things, and i think i'm going to cry now... As my ah ma gave me the duck, she told me in hokkien to be good to my mum in the future and that she may not be able to see me grow up. Why is she saying all this? Is she predicting her death? NO! I don't wan my ah ma to leave all of us. I want to continue to enjoy her company, her good food, her mei cai. It's only after living together with my grandparents, that i talk to them more often. I begin to appreciate living here in this small apartment. Having grandparents living with you is a blessed thing. Having grandparents doting on you is even more blessed. And i can tell you, even if i dont have a single ang pao this year, i will be happy, cause i have my precious family around me, and that is better than anything. I told my ah ma that she will get to see my children. I think the way i said in chinese make it sound like i want her to look after my children. I didnt' mean it this way! haha. My relatives were surprised i can speak a little hokkien. I'm determined to brush up on my hokkien listening and speaking skills, this way, i will be able to converse with my ah ma more. :)
I love my ah ma! my ah ma's ngoh hiong and mei cai rocks the world. i dont mind just having plain rice+mei cai+ngoh hiong for dinner every day. hahaha.

I thank God for giving my grandparents a long and blissed life; for giving my parents good health; for giving my brother such a wonderful girlfriend; and for giving me wonderful friends and for being my bestest friend.

2009-01-26T12:56:00.002+08:00

Chinese New Year is here.. again.
Last year's one still something which i can remember very clearly.
Maybe it's cause i'm still staying at my grandma's and the oh-so-horrible memories of cny are still lingering in my mind. I spent my last year's cny doing binomial tutorial. and this year, not being an different, will be spent on homework too. Maybe living with my grandma isn't such a bad idea. i get to have my laptop and books with me while ppl come to my house to do visitation. hmm hmm.
this morning in bed, i was thinking, haha yeah thinking.
How many more of this kind of routines do i have to go through before the next one comes?
After cny will be valentine's, will be march holidays, will be my birthday, will be this will be that.
Maybe if there wasn't any A levels to go along with it, everything will be so much more better.
Sure, A levels has to be taken sooner or later. But i dread it, and i wish that it will never come.
I'm eighteen. I'm eighteen. I'm eighteen.
This fact still hasn't seep in. I just refuse to believe it.
I wanna be a seventeen. seventeen seventeen. Yes, i'm seventeen. That i can believe.
The fortune teller on telly last night said us goaties will have a bad year this year.
Hmmmm, if it's God's plan, so let it be. is the fortune teller a prophet? How come he knows things of the future? Or is he just making random facts. Attention to all goaties, according to the fortune teller, our love life will be far from happiness. So, forget about getting a partner, CONCENTRATE ON YOUR STUDIES!!!
But if you do not believe this telly-fortune teller, then continue dreaming.
Long post, cause it will be a long and boring day. i dont even get to go out. bleh.
Maybe i will blog again in another few hours' time. zzz.

2009-01-26T12:29:00.003+08:00

2009-01-24T12:55:00.002+08:00

YU RU HAS JUST WASTED A LOT A LOT A LOT OF TIME.
YU RU IS FEELING SAD.
YU RU FEELS HER SHOPPING LAST NIGHT WASN'T ENJOYABLE.
YU RU WANTS SOMEBODY TO SHOP WITH HER.
YU RU IS BORED.
YU RU DOESN'T WANT TO GO FOR TUITION.
YU RU IS CONFUSED.
YU RU WANTS TO LET GO BUT CAN'T SEEM TO DO SO.
YU RU WANTS TO FORGET.
YU RU DECIDED MUGGING CAN ONLY START AFTER CNY.
YU RU IS CONFUSED.
YU RU NEEDS GOD'S HELP.
YU RU LOVES JESUS! :)

All this would have been my facebook profile.

2009-01-22T23:03:00.003+08:00

I'm so glad that you are feeling so much better.
:D :D :D
Praise the Lord- for healing your heart and always being there for you!

" Do what is right and good in the lord's sight, so all will go well with you."
-Deuteronomy 6:18

2009-01-22T21:26:00.001+08:00

MAYBE I WOULD BE IN THE MOOD TO STUDY AFTER......
S H O P P I N G!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-20T20:27:00.002+08:00

RUNNING IS SUPER GOOD FOR THE BODY, MIND AND SOUL.
If you are feeling stressed up, tired or sad, I will recommend yeah to go to your nearest park and run a few rounds. It's good. Helps to relieve stress and also prevents constipation. Haha, was joking about the latter.
I wanna read Rachel's psychology textbook! Rach, if you are reading this, pls bring the book on the next LG! haha. but bring it after your tests are over. haha. After Tan CB's talk about dreams and stuff, I'm beginning to be interested in how the mind works. Super amazing.
Emelyne keeps saying that my subconscious mind always direct me to look at a certain direction.
I'm trying my best not to do that. I will try even harder. Ganbatte!
I wanna shop this saturday! I wanna shop this saturday! Can't wait for the week to be over.

2009-01-18T20:28:00.002+08:00

I don't why i'm feeling rather sad these few days.
Happiness is such a temporarily emotion, that somehow i can't seem to feel it anymore.
School's starting- a new school year- and i want it to start afresh and good.
No more late for lessons and not handing in homework.
No more staring at this person during lectures.
No more of this nonsense. Cause i feel like i'm the world's biggest joke doing that.
Yeah, that's what i'm feeling right now- a big joke.
My mind always seems to wander off on its own. And i dont know what i want to do. everything just seems so confusing and blurry. i wish 2008 didnt have to end. i wish 2009 didnt have to start. there's so many things that i wish for- why none of them come true?
I'm not ready. yet.

2009-01-17T13:48:00.001+08:00

SH ORIENTATION 2009
JUST WANNA SAY
GOOD JOB EVERYBODY!

i think i'm back to the mood of writing diary and not blogging.

2009-01-06T18:08:00.003+08:00

"For God so loved the world,
that He gave His one and only Son,
that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."
John 3:16

2009-01-03T12:01:00.001+08:00

Q: Type in “[your name] needs” in the Google search:
A: Yu-Ru Lin's website. ... There are information needs involving costly decisions that cannot be efficiently satisfied through conventional web search engines ...

Q: Type in “[your name] looks like” in Google search:
A: 9 Jul 2008 ... Ma Ru Yu in Santa Ana. I’ll admit that I greeted this bowl of murky ramen with some trepidation. The sludge-like broth looks like it was ...

Q: Type in “[your name] says” in Google search:
A: yürü git laaaaan!!! by c a g l a r. dereboyu, ortaköy ... says:. evet abi, bu yurtiçi kargo olmasa burası kan gölü. adamlar her kavgayı ayırıyorlar, ...

Q: Type in “[your name] wants” in Google search:
A: The name is Yu Ru She is currently 13+ going to turn 14 on 30 july 2009. ... wants =D (:. - me and everyone close to me is healthy and happy everday ...

Q: Type in “[your name] asks” in Google search:
A: ... Michael Nyman - The heart asks the pleasure first · J.S. Bach – ‘Air on the G String, Sarah Chang ..... Gokhan Tepe : " Yuru yuregim " ...

Q: Type in “[your name] goes” in Google search:
A: Unfortunately, recently everything just comes at goes at the wrong timing. .... You are currently browsing the Yuru’s crap! blog archives for January, 2006. ...
Q: Type in “[your name] likes” in Google search:
A: Yuru Nachu is like a LOHAS without the political commitment — a passive rejection of wealth culture and conspicuous consumption, but not really the active ...

Q: Type in “[your name] eats” in Google search:
A: He tried more makeup magic, and a gentle grandfather ambled out, yu-ru, ... “I’ ll not eat you.” With a hidden grin, Tanokyu changed back to his own clothes. ...

Q: Type in “[your name] wears” in Google search:
A: Wear YURU Remember when you used to buy clothes without looking at the label? ... What does it mean to live YURU? Simple: resist the urge to blindly follow; ...

took this from my cousin's blog. some make sense, some dont. zzz. lot's of MAH RU YU though.

2009-01-03T11:54:00.003+08:00

Did anybody miss Miss Edison's 'creative' quizzes?
something to ponder about.

2009-01-03T00:25:00.003+08:00

I LOVE MY CLARINET SENIORS!!
ChunBok and YingQing,
after you guys have graduated from band,
somehow i felt a bit loss and like there is something missing from clarinets.
you guys have been my seniors for 5 years le- almost my entire dunman life!
after you guys leave for NS or Uni,
what are we to do?
what are we supposed to do to bring the clarinets up again?
I had a lot of fun with y'all, especially the nov-dec hols of 2005,
when we had part outings almost every week,
i really miss those times.
We will definitely have more part outings, and we will ask you guys to join us.
All the best for your future endeavours,
we will not let you guys (and ourselves) down.
I will try my best to find back the passion for band.
love you lots lots lots.

(know that they wont be reading this...)

2009-01-01T17:20:00.003+08:00

My resolutions never come true...
but it's always fun to do one!

1. To read the bible every morning before school.
2. To complete all the assignments/tutorials.
3. To not be tempted by my too-comfy bed.
4. To do QT every night.
5. To love my enemies and my neighbours.
6. To remain happy + crazy + optimistic even when life sucks and gets super stressful.
7. To be a 平明百姓. At least, after i step down from SC. (can't wait)
8. To not watch online dramas.
9. To be responsible and hardworking.
10. To survive this year. (VERY IMPT)

It will be all over soon, and i can see myself hopping onto the plane and flying to Japan with my friends!
ZOMG. QUICK QUICK. I want the year to pass super super fast.

2009 did come.

2009-01-01T11:53:00.008+08:00

Seriously, I didnt want 2009 to come..
It's the year when- as chun bok puts it- "the most terrible and stressful year in your 18 years of life".
Wow... that is... absolutely... stunning, i guess.

Back in 2007, i decided that 2008 will be a crazy, fun, colourful year, filled with lots and lots of activities.
Well, i guess it was definitely a one hell of rollercoaster ride- there were ups and downs, crazy steeps that went upwards and downwards, with the occasional darkness and roundabouts. I thank God for being there with me 24/7, for setting trials for me, and for all the lessons learned from them.

I love my wonderful and super hyper class, 5C34, how our instant glueness to one another on the first day of orientation and just being there for one another. Though our class is one of the jambalak classes, and only see everyone during GP, PW, PE and Math, yet we are still bonded and bonded and bonded. The teachers that were assigned to our class were great and fabulous, esp our dedicated CT- Wu Laoshi! I absolutely love our class girls, all around the same personality. Thank you all for the wonderful memories- mugging together at the emo corner/canteen/library/student lounge (i think we really mug at any where we can find in the sch), the occasional slacking, the gossips, the crazy-high-crazy-high times, and many many more. This year, let's create even more memories with one another! :D 5C34 is my favourite class out of all the 3 classes i had been in. Muaccccccckssssss!

My lifegroup mates- whom we will be with together for life- are the best best best people ever. I love every single one of you, tamtams! Enjoyed every single Friday nights, be it bible studies or just hanging out; every sunday brunches/lunches with the remaining tamtams; the sleepover@LZ's; the church services; the helping out at Zoomunji and many more. Thank you for listening to each other's problems, worries, happiness, joy; for comforting each other when we are sad or disappointed; for sharing each other's joy and happiness; for the laughter; for the craziness.... Let's deepen our relationship together with God and walk closer with Him in our lives. I thank God for every single one of you, and for every single second spent with y'all. <3

My Student Council mates- one hell of crazy year with you all. Learned a lot through council. Glad that we bonded a bit after almost a year. Not bad lah. Haha. (: All the best for Orientation '09. I'm sure God saw all your efforts, and He will reward us with a smooth and WHACKY orientation.

The TURDS. I guess if not for you guys, there's nothing else to hold me to band. I love every single moment spent with you guys, be it camwhoring, listen to each others' fantasies/complaints/dreams, celebrating each other's birthday, stoning tgt, going home tgt, random shopping sessions... I really felt the love and warmth from y'all. Guess we became much more mature and understanding, and our friendship has stepped onto another level- that we not only forgive each other, but we encourage each other's strengths and accept each other's weaknesses. Thank you for understanding my idiotic tantrums/pms/out-of-the-blue bu shuangness. Thank you. All these really mean a lot to me. WE WILL BE MATES FOREVER. And I dont think this sentence will just disappear into the thin air.. it will last. :)

Let's see what I've done in 2008, starting from Jan k?
1. Chingay- GIC
2. Joined church
3. SC Campaign- Got in!
4. LC- Make-A-Diverence/ Ohana/ Love Actually
5. Went to Inner Mongolia! 6. Rhythm Concert
7. Waff Carnival- we got third (i think)
8. DOL- participant
9. Year 4 Prom- Games Host
10.Went to Malaysia with SH Band! 11.D'Prom '08- I/C
12.Went for L.A.H camp
13.Caroling with Ympacters
14.Sojourn I

Not much... mostly caught up with school stuff. But am rather sastified with myself. :D
Hope yours was a good year too!

2008-12-31T00:12:00.000+08:00

ONE MORE DAY TO 2009!

2008-12-28T11:04:00.002+08:00

jiayou for Sojourn I!

2008-12-27T23:35:00.004+08:00

Twins- Charles & Daisie Broke
didn't expect it to be twins, some more a boy and a girl.
feeling super jubilated now. :D :D

2008-12-27T09:53:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
"have youself a merry little xmas..."

This year's xmas was indeed a blessed and joyous one. My first as a christian, and my first celebrating while understanding the true meaning of what christmas is all about. It's not all about Jesus's birthday, it's also about how the world was going to be a much better with the birth of Christ. I thank thee Lord Father Jesus for the love you have showered upon every single one of us. I hope that even non-christians will also get to understand the special meaning of christmas. Christmas is all about sharing and giving- with your family, friends, neighbours and even strangers! Such a beautiful sight....

My xmas was filled with activities- both before and after- which are band camp, caroling and xmas dinners. I enjoyed myself terribly during caroling. All our numerous practices had paid off! Yipppee! I'm so happy that i get to sing with all my church friends at TAKA, church and houses, and also to spread the joy of xmas to those around us. Everybody had fun, though super tiring, especially for those wearing heels. hahaha. Thanks to cam, shujun and wanting for coming down to TAKA to watch dinah and i sing. :D Thanks to all the church friends too! (and i saw aaron!!!) The xmas dinners at Dayi's and Ryan's were fabulous! I love all the food that was prepared. Yummy! And i love Ryan's xmas treeeee- it's super huge and bling bling! I've always wanted a xmas tree in my house, well, i have to wait until i move house. hahaha.

So here's wishing everybody blessed holidays and a happy new year! Also that 2009 will be a meaningful and fruitful year for all. :D

"This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down His life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers." -1 John 3:16

2008-12-21T22:58:00.006+08:00

L.A.H. CAMP 2008
Love. Acceptance. Humility

My first church camp at Ympact.
It was a wonderful experience- i met lots of people and made lots of new friends. One day of community service, another day of amazing race, the last day of slacking. it was a huge step for me to take, joining the camp that is, cause it was hard for me to step out of my comfort zone. but let me tell you this, i am so proud that i actually did it! there were times when i hesistated to join, or had thoughts of backing out. thank God that i managed to make it to camp! Thank God.

My group was Group 7. A great group, we are quite bonded only until the amazing race. really glad to have known everybody there. they are such nice and caring people! everybody loved each other, accepted each other's personality. so thankful and greatful of that. :) Kudos to Leon and Delane for being such wonderful and responsible group leaders.
Now looking forward to the next camp! woho!

2008-12-17T00:09:00.009+08:00

Mahjong session w the Tomyam-jong!
Last Wednesday. At NJH's house.
Didnt play mahjong since a long time ago, when i was in sec 3?
hahaha. i think i am a pro at it lo, i won SEVEN rounds leh!
Qiang right? hahaha. no lahhh, should be all beginners' luck.
even mabel and njh reckon so. bleh. >< i'm still a noob lahh, i can't tiao pai, and i dont know how to count, i dont know how to do that trick pro ppl do. hahaha. nvm i still prefer the way i stack my 18 tiles.
it's really fun playing with my fellow SCs! :D our first ever meetup without any discussion about SC stuff. hahaha. what an accomplishment.
wished i was able to stay even longer, but too bad, had to go for caroling practice. :(
We celebrated SX's bday too. but he was more amused by the word challenge then the cake. bleh.
everybody loved the cake- strawberry rocks. my favourite. :P

Let's organise another mahjong session before the school reopens!
MUST KKKKKKKKK!
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photos:

2008-12-13T23:03:00.003+08:00

做人要厚脸皮一点，才会成功。
Something which i have learnt this week.
Rah... i'm just too timid to do certain stuff... too afraid to know what will happen to me... too scared to know what the reactions of others will be...
I NEED ENCOURAGEMENT and most importantly, INNER COURAGE (if there is such a thing)!
humph.

2008-12-12T01:22:00.001+08:00

busy busy busy
will update when i've got pictures & time.

2008-12-08T11:08:00.003+08:00

BAND TRIP TO KL/MALACCA/DESARU!

29.11.08 - 2.12.08

Senior High Band finally went on an overseas trip. haha. We had been considering Laos, Vietnam, Cambodia, Taiwan, Hong kong... and finally decided on Malaysia! 20 (or is it 22) of us went, it's like an extended family trip. Really cool and fun. Sad to say, we mostly just hanged out with our individual cliques: F4, 黑社会, Turds. But we did have our own share of fun. This trip was totally like a shopping trip lah, everyday we just shop and shop and shop. I got so tired and sick of shopping that i just stoned in the Vincci shop in Jusco (JB). haha. Sunway Lagoon was...zzzzzzz. We went there on the family day, so it was like filled with half of Malaysia's people. We only took 2 rides- one lame rollercoaster and some river thingy. Sat next to Mr Jason Ng during the rollercoaster ride! haha, so happy! >< The turds were so desperate to have fun during the river thingy, that we kept screaming and trying to get ourselves wet. haha. Lame stuff which we will only do when we are overseas. We celebrated dear Jasmine's belated birthday on the second night. The entire band was there! How sweet of them! And it was really funny, how we decorated the place and invited people in only when Jasmine was bathing. Luckily she took her own sweet time. tsktsk. Next morning, Jazreen, Emelyne and I went to have a dip in the pool. Wanted to swim laps to get rid of the calories, but in the end, we were playing in the pool and became a source of entertainment for those who are eating their breakfast. BLEH.

Turds- i really enjoyed this trip together with you guys. Sorry if i was doing my prom stuff while you guys were having fun. hahaha. wrong timing for the trip ar? anyway, we must keep to our promise and go for a trip to Korea/Japan after our A levels! Can't wait! hahaha. we can camwhore and do six shots! loves loves!

2008-12-07T23:45:00.002+08:00

WEEK 2 OF JOLLY DECEMBER 08!

Monday: Jogging/ Popular shopping/ SC stuff/ Pack files/ Chem tuition
Tuesday: Jogging/ SC meeting/ mahjong?
Wednesday: Jogging/ Baking?/ Caroling
Thursday: Jogging
Friday: Outing cum movie with the BIMBOS- Alicia & Rachel/ LGee-tamtams @ Alicia's
Saturday: Caroling/ Jogging
Sunday: Youth Service/ Caroling/ Jogging

Sounds good? haha. :D

I bought a cookie-recipe book from the Borders sale. Super happy. it's such a good buy!
And i'm thinking of planning a cousin trip to Batam, inspired by Alicia. hahaha.

2008-12-06T01:11:00.012+08:00

My lifegroup girls (Rach & Lorelle) are crazy over DBSK,
and they are trying to spread the bug to me and Alicia.
haha, nice try. i only like the guy name chong min (am i correct?) he's super cute,
i must admit. and he's like the best out of the five of them.
there's this pretty boy too. not bad, funny chap.

they named the gingerbread men after the DBSK peeps.
poor gingerbread men. sighs.

i hope i took a picture of everybody.
(we didnt take a group picture! RAH!)

2008-12-06T00:58:00.003+08:00

tamtams' gingerbreadman baking session!

tamtams did cooking and baking today, it was soooo fun. i've always wanted to bake since promos.
i made my ginger mama! she had this pretty skirt and sexy lips. haha.
Ralph made chicken with some delicious gravy which Alicia and i loved.
we couldnt stop ourselves from slurping it again and again.
Ryan made cheddar cheese with sliced potatoes, yummy!
yay- now both Ryan and Ralph are qualified to own a cooking papa apron!
and our LGee will have a cooking mama and two cooking papas!
wooooooohooooooo~

i had lots of fun!
and i'm super happy.
my new life is beginning to look good.
:D

2008-12-04T18:04:00.003+08:00

A New Beginning!
Haha some of you might know that i always refer cutting hair to starting a new life.
yep and that is what i did this afternoon.
went to have a hair cut, my first one this year. the previous times were just thinning of hair.
so now, no more long hair drooping over my shoulder.
I FEEL GOOD, TADADADA!

I like it a lot!
just wished that i did a soft rebond, cause my hair wouldnt be as straight as this after i washed it.
the only good thing this week.
hope there will be more!
:D

2008-12-04T11:50:00.003+08:00

D'PROM has came to end last midnight. All the hard work, efforts, pain, laughter, joy have definitely played a part in making everything go smoothly last night. I want to thank my wonderful comm members- Jia Hui, Zhang Lu, Yun tong, geraldine, emelyne, ting pei, wei cheng, yann chyng, cherie, jerome, biyu, meiyun- for being such a committed and dedicated committee. Thank you so much, without y'all, i think we wouldnt have such a smooth night, wouldn't we? I will definitely remember all the late night meetings that we had, the gossips that we shared, the laughter, the stress, the worries. Thank you for encouraging me whenever i feel like giving up, for cheering me on whenever i feel stressed up or worried. Thank you. :)

Now that D'PROM is over. I have a new life to start. Looking at our seniors, who have walked through their 6 years in DHS, i really am proud of them. And suddenly, i felt sad. i don't want next year to come. i dont want my uniform-schooling years to come to an end. i want to be sheltered, to be protected by my teachers and friends. i don't want to have to face the harsh and cruel reality in the real world. i'm very afraid that i wouldnt be strong enough to face the obstacles, to overcome them. I will miss my friends. and i wonder how many of us will continue to keep in contact with each other. i guess that is when we see how strong and faithful are our relationships with each other.

I want to remember every single thing in my life. But i have a bad memory. What should i do?

This year has been a colourful year. I'm very grateful for it. :)

2008-12-02T23:16:00.001+08:00

I'M BACK!!!! AND TIRED... zz

2008-11-24T21:08:00.002+08:00

2008-11-22T18:58:00.008+08:00

Miss Tiong's Wedding <3

Congratulations, Miss Tiong!

I wish you and your husband a blissful and happy wedding!
Your wedding finally came true!!
I'm very very very happy for you.
And Miss tiong, you are really beautiful!

Dinah, you should have come for the wedding!
tsk tsk.

2008-11-21T23:16:00.003+08:00

Today was a crazy day.
Went on a BLACK-DRESS hunt with YunTong.
Shopped for 7 hours straight, at 6 different shopping malls in 3 different areas.
it was crazy and tiring. the first ever for me.
At first i saw quite a few nice ones for myself, but in the end YunTong managed to buy the entire set!
hahahhaa. some credit must go to me k!
The aunty at the shop was super cute. the moment yuntong went into the shop, she gave her a complete makeover!! And yuntong looks really nice and special in that set. :D
I shall continue on my dress-hunt tmr. Or else i will have no time next week.
Jia you! :D

2008-11-21T22:42:00.007+08:00

RGS-ICYL 2008 :D i love my group!

Learnt a lot from the inspirational speakers.
Made many new friends, met different kinds of people.
and learnt that tolerance is the key to peace.
maybe some neighbourhoodies are just different species altogether.
during free&easy, brought the international delegates to Lau Pa Sat.
Spammed them with lots of food,
in the end it was the local delegates who had to finish up everything.
tsk tsk.
I've always wanted to attend such conference.
It's a nice experience.
Operation-M.A.D was super fun and i learnt how to be selfless.
my group carrolled and gave free hugs along orchard road.
:D
It's heartwarming to see people faces brightening up, or just returning a hug.
This world can indeed be filled with love.
International Friendship Night-
my first time wearing ethnic costume.
and all the other countries' costumes are soooo beautiful!
All in all,
I had a great time.
:D
Thank you Lord Father, for such an enriching and inspirational experience.
It has definitely taught me a lot.

2008-11-15T04:54:00.002+08:00

THE SHSC HELPERS!

JUST WANNA SAY THREE WORDS TO EACH ONE OF YOU:
WE ARE GREAT!
& I LOVE Y'ALL!

2008-11-15T04:36:00.004+08:00

YEAR 4 PROM '08: FLIPSIDE!

It was held at St James Power Station,
my first time there, my first time at a club.
It was a blast, super high, super fun.
The Year 4s always never fail to amaze and surprise me
with their whacko moves and sleek dances.

I had A LOT of fun as a game host!
I was like super high and excited while doing the games,
when people cheer, i get even more excited.
Hahaha. I guess ESFP really loveees the stage, the limelight, the attention.
I seriously wouldnt dare be like that in front of my batch people.
They just judge you, and they already made out an impression of you eversince sec 1.
Well, they definitely missed this really good prom.
Mabel says i'm like a DJ! Super uber duber coooool!
Hahahaha. At least she still recognise my voice. I thought i was some other person.
hehehe, maybe i have a split personality?

Come to think of it,
it's quite saddening that our batch people aren't that proactive and enthu.
we have definitely missed out on a lot,
being the not so united us...
Looking at the bonded and high year 4s,
i wished i had a year 4 prom like theirs.
So any year 4s reading this,
YOU GUYS ARE REALLY LUCKY.
and can't wait to see you guys in Senior High!!

I'm so glad Shaun is the Prom King!
Congrats guy!

Now everyone is looking forward to the Year 6 Prom,
super stress...now more expectations have to be met..
This and that...
I just pray that Lord Father,
you will give my comm wisdom and confidence in everything they do.
Amen.

thanks yun tong & jazreen, for lending me the vest and the top! :D

2008-11-13T20:08:00.002+08:00

YunJing, I miss our class girls too!
Calling out to all 5C34 girls,
WHERE ARE YOU ALL?
I miss you all soooo much
that i want to see you guys now.
I miss the fun, laughter, emo, zonks, qianbian that we had together.
If anybody knows where my 5C34 girls are,
please dial this number:
1800-WHERE-ARE-MY-5c34-GIRLS.

thank you very much.

2008-11-13T19:57:00.002+08:00

2008-11-11T10:19:00.002+08:00

SC OUTING @ T3 We met at the foodcourt, realising that there's no space for us.
Smart us decided to da pao and go somewhere to eat.
We ended up eating outside the foodcourt,
looking so unglam, sat in a circle, chit-chatted, laughed, and had fun.
We started taking photo, where we attempted to carry NJH.
after the picture was taken, we almost just dumped NJH on the ground.
Some had to leave because of hostel curfew.
Rest of us started learning the algorithm dance.
(Dinah learned this from YMPACT camp)
SUPER CHEESY AND FUNNY.
i had so much fun learning it and doing it with everybody.
Passer-bys stared at us like we are some crazy people.
tsktsktsk.
Poor them, who didnt get a chance to do this.
Some of us have to go home cause of Experience on the next day.
One came when we were about to leave.
the rest stayed over at the airport to send NJH off.

NJH, TAKE CARE + HAVE FUN!
LEE YAN & ZI REN TOO.

2008-11-11T10:00:00.013+08:00

DREAMING OUT LOUD

2008-11-07T13:53:00.002+08:00

WOOHOO!
PW IS FINALLY OVER, OVER!

It feels good, terribly good.
Like a free bird in the sky.
heehee.
It's a totally different experience from all other projects
that i have worked on.

Thanks DH038, for being such an efficient and great group.
:D

2008-11-06T23:04:00.002+08:00

Hadn't have a good rest since a long time ago.
It's nice hanging out with friends,
window shopping and eating not-so-cheap food.
got to see many many pretty dresses and clothes.

Street chase with the junior high councillors was fun.
Though i didn't know any of them in the group except for SuBin.
This is my first time talking to year 1 this year!
They are rather intelligent bunch of people,
knowing more things about the current affairs than me.
Okay, so i should feel ashamed of myself- for not reading the papers.
BLEH.

Today went out with the turds, except for Jasmine.
Had an expensive lunch, which is quite filling.
Went window shopping with Sam and Jaz.
Rather fun, got to try stuff which i didnt dare try before.
Dinner with Mr Yeo, njh, dinah, zara and mabel.
It's been a long time since we sit and talk.
though not much, cause mabel and i were rather worried about what to wear for DOL.

So tomorrow is DOL.
hope it will be fun.
:)

2008-11-03T21:48:00.002+08:00

DINAH JOSEPH
thought Dinah Chua would like to see how her namesake is doing.
Had her adult birthday not too long ago,
still attempting to find a lover for her.

She's pretty right?
She's one of the better looking ones in the family.
:D

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All the best to all who are having their OP tmr!
May you guys shine and wow the audience.
Treasure the 5 minutes of presentation and Q&A.
All the best!
May God bless you.
<3

2008-11-02T21:21:00.003+08:00

我爱我的老妈！
My mum's the best in her very own special way.
I just wished that her life will be so much better,
that people will stop taking her for granted.
Mum,
I pray that the Lord will be with you every second of your life,
that all your worries and unhappiness will be lifted up to the Lord,
for He knows you the best.
I pray that one day, you will accept Jesus Christ into your life,
and be saved.
In Jesus' precious name I pray, Amen.

加油加油！

2008-11-01T20:53:00.002+08:00

Project Work is coming to an end on Friday.
I have mixed feelings about that- both happy and sad.
Happy cause I don't have to worry about it anymore!
Sad cause thinking back the days when my group just chionged out the GPP, WR and OP together.
It's kind of nostalgic... though my group is not as bonded as the others, we still did share some fun times together.
I will definitely miss those fun, terrible, xin ku, painful, happy times.

PW allow me to realise my strengths and weaknesses,
taught me a lot of valuable lessons.
I thank God for everything,
for being with all of us through thick and thin.
for giving us trials after trials, so that we can grow closer to each other and also develop ourselves.
In the beginning, I was so frustrated that everything was bad bad bad until the point that I almost started to blame You.
But as I look back, I thank you Lord Father, for all those tong ku days.
Maybe if it weren't for the tong ku period, my group wouldnt have improve so much. :D
On Friday's bible study, we learned that God will not put Christians through difficult times forever, there will eventually be an end to it. God knows our limit, and will not push us any further then what we can take.
God is great!

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I just wanna tell one friend of mine- RACHEL this..
Sorry for not being sensitive and for not being able to understand what you are going through.
I hope that whatever decision you make, will be the right one, and the one which you have always wanted.
When you are ready to tell anyone of us your situation, we are all ears.
I really want to help even when i dunno how to.
Schooling life is tough and tiring.
Just hang on and persevere, and I'm very sure you will do well.
You look tired, do get rest over the weekends!
I feel sad to see you looking so tired, and forcing yourself to look happy. (ok maybe you weren't forcing yourself)
Remember, Jesus loves you, tamtams love you, I love you.
(:
REST WELL!

2008-10-29T08:31:00.002+08:00

I am super pissed off.
I can't believe people actually do that.
I am super irritated.
And what can I do?
Just sit and whine for awhile,
and the next putting on a happy face,
even when inside is all unhappiness.
How ironic.

2008-10-27T09:01:00.003+08:00

I did this picture back in Sec 2,
when everybody was super crazy about adobe photoshop.
(haha look at my short hair & specs!)
I miss my Sec 2 days,
when i had sooo much fun.

Year 5 is gonna come to an end.
Time passed really fast this year.
And man, this year has been a crazy one too.
But i'm happy, looking back at the things that i have accomplished.
And i want to do soo much more this holiday!

I pray that this holiday would be a fruitful one,
that I will not only work towards my dreams
but also serve God in a glorious way.
There's carroling coming up,
plus dinah and i signed up for the hospital visitation!
:D

[I helped a blind man cross the road yesterday!]

2008-10-26T22:03:00.002+08:00

Friday's food tasting was a nice and super funny experience.
Firstly, I want to thank Mrs Koh, our AM for giving us this opportunity.
Jedaiah, Tommy and I were the food tasters and we represented the student body.
Secondly, the food was good. And there were so muh of it, that we could start a party.
The Korean food's EGG SALAD is classic.
It's super good. How i wish the school will allow it to be sold as a separate dish. But apparently it wont be healthy. -.-
The Thai one wasn't too bad either. Though quite.. ex. And the side veggie wasn't appetising.
The others... okay lor. Nothing really special.
Thirdly, I had a super fun time with the guys. Wish can do food tasting with them again.
hahaha.

2008-10-23T20:18:00.002+08:00

Fairness and equal distribution of workload
does not exist in this world.
the words 'fair' and 'equal' shouldn't even appear in the dictionary.
what's the point of letting people know the meaning of them,
when there are no such things in reality.

Damn.
I wished no one has ever taught me these words.
Denial is a blissful thing.
Actually, very.

2008-10-22T14:16:00.003+08:00

So... no more 1 hour rides to Mulberry Ave..
A new beginning. But would it be a better and happier one?
No one has the perfect answer for sure.
Who else can determine how my life is going to be,
except for myself. (and of course God, who has already pre-determined what my life is like)

PW is taking up half of my life.
The end of the journey is just within my reach.
How I wish my arms were longer...

I really pray that I will get my job at Sentosa.
It's my dream workplace!
I'm super sure that it is the perfect place for me.
...

2008-10-20T21:56:00.004+08:00

I love my sushi bunny soooo much
that i decided to name my future child SUSHI!
Nice name right?
:D
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This year has been a super crazy year,
and so much worse than the other 16 years of my life
things just happen one after another!
I dont seem to get any mental rest at all!
Maybe it's a test-
to see how long can i endure and persevere,
and also a test on my character- not to lose my temper easily and patience!
it's super difficult for me not to get stress up and super worried when things go bad.
i can't help it. how i wish that i am able to remain calm and logical even when i have to carry mountains of work on my back.

How i wish i am able to get some mental rest.
no problems and no worries.
Just bliss and peace.

Is that possible?

2008-10-18T12:53:00.004+08:00

ANOTHER COMPONENT OF PW IS OVER!
Next up would be I&R, OP and GPF.
Haha, can't wait for it to be over.
This entire week has been super tiring for all of us.
Mentally as well as physically draining.
I'm super lucky to have such a committed ST,
who stayed with us until 黑暗.
Thank you Wu lao shi! :D
This PW taught me a lot of things, and tolerance is one of them.
God had and has played a big part in my whole journey of PW.
Even though there were many conflicts,
God has never deserted me, and was always there for me.
Thank you Lord Father!
:D
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Friday's LG was a 'farewell party' for Stef.
I will miss her.
And i'm super glad that she likes the apron.
:D
It's time i should go brush up on my bible knowledge.
i only knew the answer to "Was Daniel handsome?"
hahahaha.

2008-10-16T00:27:00.003+08:00

DIRK & CHASIE BROKE
The happy newly weds
May them be together till their death

2008-10-12T23:36:00.003+08:00

I missed my bestie jiaying soooo much
that i talked to her for like 4 hours non-stop?
I'm so glad you are still the old you;
the one whom I always have so much fun with,
the one whom I can share anything under the sun with,
the one whom I can rant and complain to,
the one whom I have been besties with eversince a very long time ago.

I'm in love with my bestie.
Just joking!

But still love you and I forever will.
Muacks!
See you in two weeks time!

2008-10-12T13:35:00.009+08:00

EXAM IS OVER!!
but there is nothing to celebrate about.
i shall stop being such a pessimist.
yeah yeah, look on the brighter side of life.
life is not just about getting good grades, not just about school.
blah blah blah;
i know i know.
SO I'M NOT GOING TO RANT ABOUT HOW BAD MY EXAMS ARE,
I'm just gonna say how much fun I had over the past few days,
starting from the moment Ms Debbie Tan said,
"I SAID PUT YOUR PENS DOWN!"
hahahahaha.
JOY TO THE WORLD. :D

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First up,
Walking Club's first activity- trekking from Dhoby Ghaut to Aljunied. Pit stop @ Sim Lim Square
It was a totally random idea. But i had sooo much fun. couldn't stop laughing. my tummy hurts so much.
we let the green light guide our way. and we totally played safe by following bus routes.
next time, we will definitely be more adventurous.

Edit: my leader and member told me not to post photos (too unglam).

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Friday - SCHOOL!
Went with 12 other fabulous beauties to the Biennale!
Had sooo much fun with you guys. taking photos, whining about the heat, laughing at each other.
Really, it really brings back memories of the first half of the year.
when even though we were mugging, but we had a relaxed and carefree aura around us.
i really missed those times. and missed the old me even more.
SO.... I'M GLAD THE HAPPY ME IS BACK.
seriously, i thought i was going to be some moppy kid for the rest of my life. How glad i am to be smiling and laughing. (but you never know, i may have a dark side. like what mr tang said on the last PE lesson. o.O)
it's a pity we missed mama mia. but we had pasta as a substitute! so not so bad right.
after that was some shopping, and life group!
i'm glad God talked to me through this bible study,
you see, i have been facing some difficulties and stuff over the exam period. (i didnt tell anyone about it)
so Stef mama, what you said and all, is really true and it's as if, God is talking to me through you. thanks a lot!

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Sat- PW meeting, CYCLING with (6) tamtams!
Hope you guys had fun! I definitely had fun! :D
rest your butts over the weekend. dont' let it work too much.
Ryan is pretty good at coming up with jokes.
and pls stop stop stop stop making fun of my name! RAH.
i'm gonna use Raulph's tatic soon.
(it's all Ben's fault. bleh.)

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Sun- church and hanging out with bestie!
I WOKE UP HALF AND HOUR LATE.
and was late for service by 45 minutes. :(
Nice brunch, had fun fellowship-ing.
can't wait to see my bestie! it's beeeen ages.
:D

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NICE WEEKEND HUH?
I JUST DIDNT ADD IN THOSE PARTS LIKE
HOW I'M SUPPOSED TO HAND IN MY H3 MUSIC PROPOSAL BY MIDNIGHT OR RATHER 11.59PM.
AND ALSO MY WR PART.
BLEH. THIS SUCKS.
oh remember, look at the brighter side of life.

:D

2008-10-09T23:34:00.001+08:00

Too tired to post about today's super unexpected post-exam outing.
but i sure had great fun!
(and pain)
ARGH.

2008-10-07T13:00:00.003+08:00

Chocolate Brownie!

English Pizza Muffins!

Lasagna!

All courtesy from startcooking.com

2008-10-06T17:26:00.002+08:00

I've always wanted to buy nacho cheese sauce.
But since i do not know where to buy it,
i shall make it after my exams!

Chua Yu Ru is going to be the next naked chef!
wohohoho.

2008-10-06T10:05:00.003+08:00

DINAH JOSEPH
(hahaha yeah i named her after Dinah Chua)
i thought she looks cute with this hair and especially the specs!
It's the CHEN XIN YI's specs!
hahahaha.

i'm crazy and addicted to the Sims 2.
but going to get bored soon.
i wish i had all the expansion packs.
boo hoooooooo.

esp the Nightlife and Seasons.
i've always wanted them.

I've watched finish Gossip Girl.
Nobody in that show is not screwed up in one way or another.
It's quite funny how the show makes fun of those superficial rich people, who control the economy, as much as i would like to deny it.

2008-10-06T09:48:00.002+08:00

Thanks Mr Tan CB for posting this on moodle!
I love this song too! (and not forgetting my cousin)
It's been quite some time since i listened to japanese songs.
And it's good to hear such a good japanese song.
Makes my heart melt...

2008-10-05T12:42:00.002+08:00

okay. so what's up after exams?
MORE WORK.
ok i'm not going to complain.
and this time i'm going to face it and not hide away.

2008-10-04T19:45:00.003+08:00

Chasie Joseph
Second daughter

my sims family has grown again!
now Nathan and Coleen have five children.
(tsk tsk- baby producing couple)
but i'm sick and tired of babies.
SO NO MORE!!!

hahahhaha.
at one point i thought Nathan was going to die.
and i was kind of eager to see the grim reaper.
but sigh,
none of that happened

and one irritating thing is that
ALL THE BABIES ARE GIRLS.
rrrrrrrrrrrr.
what happened to boys.

2008-10-03T09:38:00.003+08:00

this year's exams are the worse that i have encountered.
not because they are difficult. (that is what makes it worse)
but because i didnt have the 'drive' in me to work hard.
i slacked the most out of all the exams i have prepared for.
i just didn't want to study.
chem paper was bad.
i did study. i did mug hard for it.
just that i cant remember what i have learnt and understood. mental block?
and it becomes even worse when u are supposed to know the answers yet u cant do them.
i hate myself.
life has become so.... like that.

2008-10-02T18:37:00.001+08:00

2008-10-02T06:34:00.000+08:00

TODAY IS CHEM PAPER!
I PRAY THAT I WILL DO WELL,
AND EVERYBODY ELSE WHO WORKED HARD WILL DO WELL TOO!
ALL THE BEST PEOPLE!

ok i have to go catch the school bus.
TATA!

2008-09-30T20:14:00.003+08:00

Started playing Sims 2 again!
Her name is Coreen Joseph.
She's married happily to Nathan Joseph,
had a kid - Chasie, and adopted a girl - Katalyn.
She's going to be pregnant with another one!
hahahahaha.

2008-09-27T21:06:00.004+08:00

TWO MORE DAYS!!

I'm half excited and half nervous about it.
Not sure what to expect.
Hope the teachers aren't out there to kill us!

and....
TWELVE MORE DAYS
to the end of promo exams.
seriously can't wait.

5c34 chemists: MDM KOH IS GIVING US A MOVIE TREAT IF WE GET TOP 3 FOR AVERAGE MARK!
so work hard people! WE CAN DO IT!

2008-09-25T21:05:00.004+08:00

Today went to the Bedok Lib to study.
DHS had its own clan there, many of us went there to study.
hahahha.
Nowadays the library seems to be a place where the neighbourhood sch kids usually hang out at and the ideal dating place too.
Two announcements were made to ask the neighbourhood sch kids to 'shut up'.
what a different experience.

FINALLY DONE WITH EOM!
hip-hip-hooray(:

2008-09-21T19:33:00.002+08:00

Busyness
My question for God:
How can i overcome empty busyness?

A moment with God:
All our busy rushing ends in nothing. [Psalm 39:6]
Plant your seed in the morning and keep busy all afternoon, for you don't know if profit will come from one activity or another - or maybe both. [Ecclesiastes 11:6]
Be careful how you live. Don't live like fools, but like those who are wise. Make the most of every opportunities in these evil days. Don't act thoughtlessly, but understand what the Lord wants you to do... Be filled with the Holy Spirit [Ephesians 5: 15-18]

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Rich harvests cannot come from idle hands. Getting a job done require work. Busyness becomes dangerous only if your activities replace real accomplishment or if you are neglecting God or the people in your care. The key to overcoming empty busyness is to be fully productive for God. You do this by understanding his call and purpose for life and prioritising your activities around them. God empowers you to make the most of the time he's given you.
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'God empowers you to make the most of the time he's given you.'
Am i doing that- making the most of the time?
Or am i just wasting my time away,
doing nothing, playing the computer, sleeping...
I DON'T KNOW WHAT SHOULD I DO.
TO PUT A STOP TO ALL THESE.
I HAVE NEITHER DISCIPLINE NOR A STRONG WILL-POWER.
i fall asleep even before doing what is supposed to be done.
and it's getting from bad to worse.
i worry, but all the worrying is done inside my head, and not put down into actions.
bleh. i would rather be super busy with super lots of things to do.
at least i get a sense of accomplishment out of these busy stuff.

TEACH US TO REALISE THE BREVITY OF LIFE. SO THAT WE MAY GROW IN WISDOM. [Psalms 90:12]

Taken from Divine Moments for Women- Everyday Inspiration from God's Word

2008-09-20T18:13:00.004+08:00

Let me tell you who are the real geniuses.

BACH, BRAHMS, DEBUSSY, BEETHOVEN and ALL THE OTHER FAMOUS COMPOSERS
ARE THE REAL GENIUSES.

i wish they would just give me half of their IQ before they died.
or better, that their ghosts will possess me just this night,
so that i can complete this absolutely challenging (note the pc-ness) composition portfolio.

how can i make my wishes come true???

2008-09-19T20:02:00.002+08:00

What i need to do now is to
hit the books and not sleep so much.

i can't seem to stop worrying about things.
i can't seem to sleep in peace nowadays, i always end up having weird dreams or nightmares.
or else i will just be thinking about a lot of things.
bleh.

2008-09-17T00:54:00.002+08:00

I really really love my year 5 class.
It's the best class to be in.
I thank God-
for putting all of us together,
for crossing our paths,
for allowing us to be friends.
The posts which you guys wrote on the class blog
really warm my heart
and encourage me to work even harder together with you all.
We are NOT under achievers,
we can BEAT the other classes,
and be OVER-ACHIEVERS like them.

jia you jia you!
:D

think of the cooking session, chalet, gossip, chit-chats, fun that we are going to have together after the promos!
There always be light at the end of the tunnel.

2008-09-14T17:22:00.003+08:00

Jesus, Beautiful Saviour,
God of all Majesty,
Risen king,
Lamb of God,
Holy and righteous,
Blessed redeemer,
Bright morning star

All the heavens shout your praise,
All creation bow to worship You

How wonderful, how beautiful,
Name above every name, exalted high
How wonderful, how beautiful,
Jesus your name, name above every name, Jesus

I will sing forever, Jesus I love you, Jesus I love you
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was playing solitaire as a form of distress.
and it taught me to persevere on and not give up halfway through.
I played 11 games, and was stuck for 10 of it.
and i succeeded in the last game!
i'm glad i didn't give up, or else i wouldnt have completed a game.
i guess this goes the sames for my promos preparation.
not many days left, and soo much more to study.
i will not give up, and never will.
i will persevere on even until the moment when the invigilator instructs us to put our pens down.
from now till the promos, i will do my best.
and i hope my friends will do their best too, and not give up hope.
cause there is hope in everything and anything until you give up hope on yourself.
jia you everybody!